thank God i found you :)

I just realized that I am so lucky and blessed to have many friends who loves me and has always been there for me through it all. All this time, I have been so sad and down because i have not realized this yet. I..Mikaela Joyce Somera..a first year masscomm student has already found what was needed for me to be happy.. "INSPIRATION"..yeh..that's it! that really is it! That was what i was lacking all through the years. Dont get me wrong. If you are thinking right now that I am inlove with a boy then you're wrong. It's not the inspiration that I am talking about. It's the inspiration that comes from within. I'm just sooo damn happy i found it! ;) I found an inspiration to strive..an inspiration to push through despite all the hardships :) thanks!

i mis my barkada :)

D'trippers..i mis you so much..

i miss my barkada. i wish we could spend time together again. i wish we could bond again. Our schedules dont meet already. :(

airrish delgado..salamat sa photos!

bipolar?

Bipolar or manic depressive disorder. I just took this quiz in facebook about mental disorders and I was shockingly, electrifyingly,dreadfully,awfully diagnosed to be a bipolar type of a person. Am i? No! I am not. (defensive) Dont get me wrong here. I am not taking those bunch of quizes in facebook and tire my eyes reading all those questions just to question its credibility afterwards. Come on... I just want to argue about it. I just need to defend myself. I know I am not bipolar. I know it. I just know it. Actually I was expecting something worse like authism because I tend to be authistic at times. Just kidding!

Well, according to what I have read about bipolars is that they have the tendeny to be suicidal. That!That! That! statement made me conclude that i dont have this manic depressive disorder that facebook was talking about. I didnt even think of killing myself. Although sometimes I send group messages that says I am going to die tonight and that I am killing myself, I have never entertained thoughts of literally killing myself. I am afraid to die. Even if worse things happen to me, I wont kill myself. Moving on to the second symptom..DEPRESSION...according again to what I have read, Depression is a psychiatric disorder characterized by an inability to concentrate, insomnia, loss of appetite, anhedonia, feelings of extreme sadness, guilt, helplessness and hopelessness, and thoughts of death. Yess.. LOSS OF APETTITE... i just dont think that I am showing this symptoms. I dont loose my appetite when I am sad and I dont entertain thoughs of killing myself. So this is the end of my defensive speech..(laugh) I just want to say to the world that.... I am not bipolar. I am normal! heard it?! Im normal!

my first blog post

Since this is my first blog post, i might as well introduce myself to you people. Im Mikaela Joyce Machado Somera. I just turned 17 years old. I am currently taking up Bachelor of Science in Mass Communication in Ateneo De Zamboanga University. Why BSMC?Well, I dont know. Really. I dont know. I just looooove writing although I admit that I still havent mastered writing yet, and I am afraid that..oh...I STILL HAVE NOT STARTED LEARNING IT YET. (First year pa lang naman eh). Yes, I write poems, short stories, essays, features during my highschool days but I may term those feature articles as "baby features" oh yeah..baby.. . I am really looking forward to learning more critical and nourishing thoughts about writing. Someday, I want to write a book. I will succeed and one day I will savour the happiness that I long for. Everything will turn out the way it was planned. Ooops.. I may be talking too much about my dreams here..or worst, about writing. Well, that is what I want to write and I think that is the purpose of a blog right? Letting people know what you feel. Letting people enter your world.

So you might ask..what made me open a blog account..? again my answer is the three-word phrase..I DONT KNOW. Something just gotten into me tonight. I dont know what it is but it gotta be good. Well, let's just put it this way.. I am feeling this oh so strong feeling in my heart and I just got to let people know what I feel. I gotta shout it to the whole world wide web. SO there, that was me..and this is my blog..